Word Vomit
Blogging has become a way for people to say whats on their mind…somewhat anonymously, right? Hide behind the keyboard and just type away. Free therapy, I say. I’ve taken many an opportunity on other websites to vent–that neighbor with the devil dog who creeps me out, the ex-boyfriend who’s girlfriend calls me to inform ME that I was the “other woman” in their relationship, and even my well-publicized disdain for all things lovely on the 14th day of February. I’ve also used blogging to mark the most momentous occasions–the unexpected bonus from a frequent client, the genuine happiness of a weekend spent with family, or the long overdue arrival of a Christmas present.
What I have not managed to do very well is tackle a few of my own demons, one mainly that seems to shape nearly every day of my life. I tell people, I know what my issues are, I know where they came from, but I don’t know what to do with it. Even to tell the story of it’s roots has left me at a loss for words, unless I turn to someone, anyone else, for inspiration. I find the solace in the lyrics of others, a string of a few words that leaves me saying-why couldn’t I have said it that way! Classic case of running the situation over in your head for hours on end, coming up with alternate-better-ways to have handled it.
So I’ve decided to handle it in my own way. String together these random musings with the hope of getting my point across. Use someone else’s words to say what it is that I want so badly to say for myself. I’ve included these Random Lyrics somewhere else before, erasing each post to make room for the next. Most don’t even realize that its my story, my deepest desires of the heart. Those that do notice the correlation of one verse to the next, well I dedicate this to you. Take this journey with me as I strive not to outrun, but to stop, reflect, and conquer.
